Today I have a lot of things to do. I have to finish some things for school and I have a therapy appointment too. I also am going to a midweek church service for the campus students in my church. I don't usually go to those, but I want to now. So far I'm doing better than I was yesterday as far as being more focused on God. That may have something to do with the fact that God is gracious and my Bible is next to me, getting quoted for Facebook. I think me and my boyfriend have finally figured something out to keep us focused on God rather than each other while not just totally chopping communication. He's also got a study on Thursday, which makes me happy and I've got one too now that I think about it. I pray I will be able to get baptized this Sunday, I really want to. I so do not want to do these things for school. No motivation, no confidence, I'd like to say my life sucks right now, but in reality it doesn't. It's just hard. being 18 is annoying. being sortakindamaybenotreally an adult bites. being an adult is no fun, neither is the prospect of being one. nyeh, God help me please.